LOVE PALPATIONS

My life isn’t the same anymore. Ever since that proposal, it’s been going upside down. Extreme emotions, mood swings and increased palpitations. My heart was a tumultuous affair last night. I wanted to talk to her. I didn’t know how to… but I wanted to talk. I was scared, overwhelmed, petrified… even paranoid. What had I gotten myself into? After the initial euphoria wore off, I realized I was sweating. Sweating as I finally understood the gravity of the entire situation. I was waiting for a reply to my proposal of a lifetime… and not something that was temporary. What had I done? I had to talk to her… but didn’t have the courage to. It’s not that I had a doubt in my mind about the girl, I just maybe wasn’t thinking and acted impulsively. But then, something happened. Something that calmed my frayed nerves completely and made me believe my choice was perfect. She called! She called and spoke to me. She called to tell me how her day in Ilesha was. She called to tell me she loved me. And then she said the unthinkable. She told me she knew I was scared, even unsure. She assured me she would wait. there was no hurry. I could take as much time as I needed to know her, to find her… to love her. She was ready to be the woman in my life without placing any conditions. She just wanted to be with me… and she was ready to do it when I was. Her thoughtfulness and understanding stance amazed me. Never in my life had I come across someone who was willing to do so much for me. She wasn’t just loving me but willing to wait for me to fall in love with her - at my own time, on my own conditions. All my apprehensions vanished. No longer was I scared. I didn’t need to be. I had the biggest support with me - her. She was there with me. Her love for me is crazy… and I love that about her. I keep telling her about the little things that I love about her. I love a lot of things about her. Her cheeks, the way she smiles, the way her eyes widen when I tell her something crazy, the way she gets slightly possessive around me, the way she talks to me when I am unsure… the way she loves me. I love her. And I am glad I have her by my side. I know this is going to be a wonderful, lifelong relationship. I know!